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Losing a grandchild or children – twin baby loss as a granny

Losing a grandchild is an indescribable heartache, one that rips through the normalcy of life and leaves a void that can never truly be filled. My own encounter began when my daughter, full of the joy and anticipation that comes with expecting twins, faced the unthinkable. The babies, whom we had already named Jacob and George, battled bravely for life but were born too soon to survive.

When you become a grandparent, you not only relive the joys of parenting, but you also revisit the worries and fears. The excitement of welcoming twins was tangible—I had always dreamed of the special bond twins share. However, the harsh reality of premature births turned our dreams into a period of intense sorrow and pain.

As the situation unfolded, starting with early labour and the hospital’s grave warnings, every parent's instinct in me wanted to fix it all—to protect my daughter and her babies. I prayed for a miracle when Jacob was born at just 23 weeks, small and fragile, yet fighting with every ounce of his tiny being. Holding him, even knowing the odds were against us, I whispered love and reassurance, hoping against hope.

The following days were a blur of desperation and mourning but clinging on to hope for his brother. Four days later George was born but after a difficult birth he was sadly stillborn. The experience of walking out of a hospital with memory boxes instead of newborns is a torment I wouldn’t wish on anyone. My heart grieved not only for the grandsons I would never watch grow up but also for my daughter and her partner, whose pain was palpable and raw.

Advice for Grandparents Navigating This Unique Grief

1. Allow Yourself to Grieve: It’s vital to recognise your own grief as legitimate and profound. You’ve lost a grandchild/grandchildren, and your dreams and expectations for the future have been shattered. You are mourning the loss of what could have been, and that is a very personal and deep sorrow.

2. Support Your Child: Your child needs you now more than ever. Be there to listen, to hold, and to offer strength. However, remember that they need to process their grief in their own way, and everyone is different. Be a presence of comfort, not pressure.

3. Seek and Offer Moments of Remembrance: Speaking the names of those gone too soon helps keep their memory alive. Share stories, light candles, or create memorials that honour your grandchild or grandchildren. These actions are not only therapeutic but also build a legacy of love.

4. Take Care of Your Health: Grieving can take a tremendous toll on your physical and emotional health. Ensure you are eating well, resting, and seeking emotional support, whether from friends, family, or professionals.

5. Help with the Practicalities: Sometimes, helping to manage everyday tasks can be a huge support. Offering to cook a meal, take care of household chores, or simply handle some errands can relieve some pressure from the grieving parents.

6. Support Surviving Siblings: Offer help with any siblings process their grief. They might feel loss mixed with guilt, particularly in understanding the situation. As a grandparent, offer a comforting presence, listen, and help them express their feelings through activities like drawing or storytelling. This support ensures they feel secure and understood during this difficult time.

7. Navigating Mixed Feelings with a Surviving Twin or Triplet: If there is a surviving twin, recognise the complex emotions your child might experience—joy for the life that continues and sorrow for the one that died. Offer a listening ear and gentle guidance to help them balance these feelings. Celebrate the surviving twin's milestones, while also honouring and remembering the sibling who passed away.

8. Keep Communication Open: It’s essential to communicate openly with your family about your feelings and to encourage them to share theirs. This can be a difficult time for everyone and keeping feelings bottled up can lead to isolation and misunderstanding.

9. Remembering and Honouring: No matter how many years pass, the child who was lost will always be a part of the family. Acknowledge them on their birthdays, remember them at Christmas, and mention their name in everyday conversations. When counting grandchildren, include them. These gestures of remembrance show your child that their loss is recognised and shared, and that the memory of their child endures. These small moments can provide immense comfort and a sense of continued connection.

10. Be Patient with the Healing Process: There is no timeline for grief. It can ebb and flow and often hits in waves when least expected. Be patient with yourself and your family as everyone navigates this journey in their own time and way.

My heart still carries the scars of that loss, but it has also expanded to embrace new joys—my rainbow granddaughters. Each birthday, we celebrate not just their lives but also remember Jacob and George, who are forever stars in our sky.

In sharing this experience, I hope to offer some comfort and understanding to other grandparents navigating this painful path. You are not alone in your grief, perhaps we can find threads of hope and healing together.


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